Too much thinking

I’m having a hard time getting back to work. I have been thinking a lot recently and a lot of things are now making sense. I just realized that the person I have been sharing everything with hasn’t been totally honest with me for the last past months. Though I understand why, it still hurts really bad.

To lighten my mind a bit more, I received a box with the very last pictures I left in Oregon. I went through all of them. And I wish I had never opened that box. It just makes me feel so sad to realize that we had everything and that we lost it. I still don’t understand how you can be part of somebody’s life and projects for so long and wake up one morning alone with nothing else than memories. Life really sucks sometimes. And the worst is that I still don’t know where we screwed up and what else we should have done to prevent this from happening.
I guess we just change as time goes by till the day we realize that we are not satisfied with what we have anymore and that things won’t get any better, so we call it over. I wish it ended differently. It started so well...