Tough week

It's almost friday... This week has been a long long week. And a tough one as well. I'm trying to get rid off my crushes since the first day I got them... but each time I think I'm doing better I'm waking up the next morning with more pain. I'm planning on stopping thinking...
This week Max and I have presented our work to the department. I think it went well even if I'm not fully satisfied with my prestation. Jim kindly reminded me that nobody is perfect and told me that I should give myself some credits for what I am doing. He's probably right. I just have a real problem getting rid off the image of the perfect girl that is ingrained in me. I should give myself a break and stop fighting against everything that doesn't seem right. I should try to give myself a little bit of time otherwise I won't make it. I have to admit tonight that I' m totally depressed. I'm afraid I won't find again what I'm about to leave. And I am just feeling so lonely at this point. I refused to see it till now but it now appears so obvious. I guess a lot of people already experienced what I'm currently going through but I don't know who to talk with. I just have so many questions and no answer. I guess answers will come with time. Just need to be patient. Just feel like an alien for now, trying to hide behind work.